half into it.

right now, i am holding my laptop cord where the beagle from hell sunk his teeth into ruining my life.

thus, once the battery is half charged, i will run to get tape.

how it is taking so long.

the title explaining my state from all angles.

nuit blanche tomorrow?

so excited!

i have to redeem myself from new years eve's festivities.

later days and nights, steals.

i have no problem with stabbing my roommate's dog with a fork.

because he bit my laptop cord and will be the reason as to why i do not have internet next for the next couple of days. and this is a good song.

so roommate, hop on fixin' what your dog fucked up, please.
for both of our sakes.

Góðan daginn is all we can have right now, alaska.

Trust Me

i know what i'm doing.

i hate that i'm falling for something this hard this quickly.

but the breaks don't seem like an option.

it just works.

things are understood with nothing but a nod of the head.

i've lost a sleeping pattern over him, and i would do it again.

i'm changing the lighting in the room i'm in.

and things are coming slowly back to what i want them to be.

ever changing as everything else.

and i'm learning to love and let be.

(he has no clue how much he helps me to do that.)

here is a picture of 400 people that i know

(after much help from my facebook friend list)

things i would like to point out:

-most green people are starbucks people.

- my 3 kindered souls are in primary yellow (roommate, j, second mom)

- i am in white (i have yet to decide what colour to be)

- i cheated by putting some musicans on here (they deserve the glory)

touch ups are needed. but so is time.

i'm loving my program right now.

though i am behind, it's fine.

not concerned. i'm dedicated.

also: i am loving the stills right now.

something else that i would love to mention:

PARKS & RECREATION IS DOPE.

sayings that i would like to add to the vault:

- thug

-swagger

-givin' off hate

-knarly (it's making a comeback)

also, i love my best friend saima.

wanted to toss that one out there.

HAMMER TIME.

this is why saima & i need to start practicing halo.

because if we do join the amazing race, we will need to be linked mentally.

not just by meeting up in dreams (she gets me).

(and thank you, j for reminding me how to take a picture of the computer screen.)

these days are good & better.

hear from you soon on the other end of this work load.

much love and care,

mt-bizzle.

ok, cupid. listen here!

so after being ditched by my boorista for drinking plans, my collegues and i decided to make spiked and skutted strawberry lemonade frappucinos for ourselves and i got to thinking...

how sick i am of the manboyz that approach themselves in my life.

SO.

PROBLEM SOLVED.

i made a dating profile.

sure, the first guy to message me was too old and complimented me on my beauty one too many times,

BUT THAT'S OKAY!

this has potential!

or so we can only hope!

i'll let you know of the progress.

-mtb.

love until your hands bleed.

the evening sealed up a lot for me today.
i buried crushes that were hallow,
vices that did more damage than good,
dazed at the montreal skyline,
spent fourty minutes talking to a teacher about arts&ideas,
and gained internet at home back.
pleasant.
things are movin'.
and will be.
jb, i miss you already.

an education other than arcimboldo

came up with an interesting concept for a surreal assignment in two dee class.

i feel like i am out of touch with all my friends and everything else.

like the loop is drifting away.

but i had a nice day yesterday.

what has been going on and the thoughts that i choose to share and not edit:

(something i would call a rambling self-explanation if i wanted to)

so. i live in montreal right now yet i know as little as a tourist.

i am a person who understands through landmarks rather than names.

much like the way i look at people.

i have a roommate who is moving out in july as opposed to november.

we decided we wanted to stay friends and this would be the way to do it.

i am living the life of an adult that is learning things for the first time.

so i am lost and i know that.

my dreams are vivid and so are my thoughts at night.

i work at starbucks and it feels like home.

mainly because of the staff.

i visit my old high school because it feels like home.

mainly because of the staff.

i don't know what to think of the concept of love anymore.

i guess it's something that i believe in.

but i have to confirm what my definition of that is.

i have learned the one plus one equals two of life lately.

and i wish i felt motivated to go back to school.

i wish there were a lot of things that i didn't have to worry about.

then again, there is a lot i choose not to worry about.

i miss the thoughts of country and how you needed very few;

where the cold in your toes were part of the fun.

your head laying in snow or grass depending on the season,

but you admired the soil's view of the sky.

that something i miss.

i miss a lot of people i was forced to give up based on the toxic they leaked.

i have to learn to remember my antidotes more.

devil's advocate is something that leads to a lot of grey zones but it's something that i do way too often.

i have nothing figured out and that's fine because that's life sometimes.

i just wish i could think beyond next month with more than just a hope of vague impression.

wish i could afford...

a mac,

a kitten,

time to be cute,

my own apartment,

my own zine,

my own bakery,

my own clothing line,

my own band,

my own trainers to get me the talent to have my own band,

time to have friends,

time to be the best vegetarian that ever lived,

time to clean my apartment,

time to care.

the timeless (and not in the cool way),

mtb

the opening scene of the olympics we're embarrassing.

canadians are not like that.

sorry.

we do not have glowing inflated polar bears,

we do not have kids who float on wheat-geese and cloud horses,

we also don't have mountains that play flashbacks.

or lady gaga slash ymca natives that won't stop dancing.

we DO however have pug book ends.

i have more important things to worry about.

SO THIS IS STUPID.

YAY!

moment of attention for: mad men, parks of recreation, the rocker, and vancouver.because vancouver will be hated because of the olympics.

your deceased,

mtb.

fences in the road.

nothing is what it should.

and i don't know how to handle that.