DUDE.

so it's been a week and i have been up to little and everything.
a lot of things have come up and past. i just can't even talk!
gah! saima is at the bathroom in the mall so i only have a milli second before our chill time starts.
SO.
I'M ALIVE.
AND WILL HAVE THINGS TO SAY AND DOCUMENT.
GOOD THINGS.
GREAT THINGS.
STUFF.

the girl who doesn't have enough time with all the time in the world,
-mtb

on second thought...

FIND ME AN APARTMENT AND THEN I WILL BE CALM.

i am going to drown myself in the city until eugenia gets here. also:

ke-dollar sign-ha, get help.

this is not hot like an 808 drum!

i don't even know what that is!

but it's a lyric so you should know what it is!

in between woods and paradise.

it has been far too long and i have far too much to do, keep up with, and vocalize.
but here's the main thing on my market:

i am shaving my head.

clean.

for cancer research and treatment on june 10th.

bald.

REASONINGS:

- i have always wanted the courage to do it. i figured i was tired of talking the talk. it was time to take a stroll.

- i love the feeling of a buzz cut. why not?

- i have gotten a haircut after every court date that i have had the unfortunate force to take part in. and come may 28th, it will be my last one on the topic. so, as a final hoorah, i am giving it my all.

- i continuously saw ads on the metro on the topic and decided to go on their website and look into in further. i ended up stumbling upon a picture elsewhere of a little girl that looked like my baby sister's twin. that was it. i was sold.

- side bar: i have become a person who is willing to give everything up. whether it be hair or home, drinking, smoking. no fear. i am going skydiving after all. but now it's become a fear of holding on. too much vulnerability that to chance that leaves me on edge. and it

this all being said, i am taking donations until june 9th.

so i am taking donations no matter how small until june 9th. everyone who donates will receive a personalised thank you card along with a special treat (drawing, zine, picture, button, bracelet) from yours truly.

for those who haven't received my grad write ups (two years later), this is a perfect time to cash that in.

so let me know!

contact me via txt, facebook, e-mail, twitter, tumblr, or blogger. and we will figure something out.

worse comes to worse, if you are short for time and you drop it off at the last minute, you can come to me head shaving at:

1 Place Ville-Marie June 10th (métro Bonaventure).

hopefully you have the chance to donate or participate!

other than that:

-still in the woods: one more arts and ideas assignment and i am home free until august!

- moving: stressed as all fuck. my sister fails on moving her ass so we are fucked. fucked. fucked. fucked. i do not know if the apartment was picked up, if we can in fact break our lease, and whatever else is going on. i try not to think about it.

- i was promoted: my training is supposed to start either this week or next. i hope it's sooner as opposed to later. work is chaos. people aren't showing up, more people are coming in, more shit to learn and avoid. just nuts.

-mentality: getting to where i want to be. slowly but surely.

i just want some breathing space. i think i will be find once this week is over.

assignments done, grocery shopping will have been done, bozes brought home, overall routine broken and i can start planning my concerts and my life!

concerts i plan on going to:

COCOROSIE, TELEKENISIS, MGMT, OSHEAGA, and vampire weekend, alsoothersthaticannotrememberaththemoment.

i'll keep you posted once the exhales are permitted.

-mtb.

your predictions about love ring right, best friend.

and i love you for that and so much more.

wishing wishful thinking was closer to reality.

sketchin' and searchin'

i came to school for nothing and i just want to dress like m.i.a

welcome back the sunshine.

meet this kid with attitude and swagg in my program that i feel like giving some face time.

the sibling to my older sister's academic rival through out high school, interesting how we both ended up in creative arts.

he coined me the nickname ''Sunshine'' to express my disgusting amount of happiness and pep most of the time as well as a referrence to our favourite sports movie ''Remember the Titans".

Though we were put into art classes for second semester, he somehow managed to continue the teasing and kidding around.

he resently told me that he was dropping out of the program to become a firefighter.

i was pissed, dude. this street tagger and talented fool was LEAVIN

G the foundation?

with days approaching the end of semester, he was working on his final project.

but... effort was put. what's the point in making the meal if you won't eat it, amirite?

regardless, following one of my long long long nights and days in my school's art studio, eugenia called me down to check out nick's end result. and holy shit. was it ever an end result.

i am so proud of him.

SO PROUD.

he also told me that this project convinced him to stick it out.

here's hopin' for a collaborative project next year!

nice to have you back.

geenia genius.

i am in love with this painting. i need a zombie picture.

check her out. she be dope.

http://geenia.tumblr.com/

chaos evolution

i know i haven't really been much of anywhere in the past little while. school, work, life in general is very chaotic. but i'm loving it right now. which is what's important, right?

i have to run off and conquer my semester in 7 minutes. BUT UNTIL THEN, i really wanted to show to those who have yet to see my ''supposed to be zine'' final project for my drawing class. i spent over 30 hours painting it, it's the size of a wall, and in my opinion: cali. a.k.a: knarly, psychodelic, and baller.

it is actually going to be part of two school exhibits and will be posted in my school's staircase as a display.

MY OWN STAIRCASE.

but here's my brief step by step of how it all went down.

i have easily used this picture a grand total of 5 times for assignments in the almost month that i've been wearing it.

good call, sis. good call.

the stenciled version.

very far in my actual painting assignment. this is me discussing with ashley miller (my favourite teacher to date) about it's completion.

note to self: we love miller. love her.

i was repeatedly teased for doing this entire thing barefoot.

whatever! i didn't want to ruin my rockin' gladiators.

the late late hours that i spent at school with payge and eugenia

(eugenia's photography talent through out, by the way.)

but more about those two lovely cupcakes later.

the morning that it was due & me in my pjs. as well as being all hipster with my mismatching socks.

the end result.

Title: Permit Me Chaos.

far too much details and symbolism in everything for me to write out this minute.

but, y'know.

i'm so pleased.

after giving birth to art the size of a baby whale, i think i did good.

APPOINTMENT NOW.

my klimthol.

false flat line.

i'm breathing. i'll come back.