self explanatory. i worked open today at starbucks, went for a mall (bought a cute housewife skirt and dress from h&m) & meal meet & greet with saima around my work for a bit, came home, watched every vlog under mememolly, wished i was her, went on various ridiculous and worthless websites, tried to make my first youtube video three times and bailed, sent txt messages back and forth all of which left me feeling run out.
i just don't feel motivation anymore for much of this. the same people, the same situation, the same idiotic triangles, rectangles, or webs that people build and complain about.
i was thinking about sex and the city the other day. carrie bradshaw in particular. the fact that she spent most of her time sleeping around with people, taking a couple of months here and there to get over big, burger, or random other sizes and foot-named men. when she would pretty much just do the exact same thing to them.
(and i cannot just believe i used sex & the city as an explanation method)
these days, things seem to be a doubl-ended sword. you would think that while reading the beginning of always looking up, i would become more of an optimist. i think i am just becoming a realist with my present situation and i don't know what to do with that.
i just decided what my first vlog is.
*minutes pass*
so that's that.
i think i've said enough.
yours truthfully,
mtb.
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