rick predicted the tears.

and shawn's trade-off offerings will help me wipe them away.

i am sorry to be a disappointment.

i did not intend for it to be that way.

i cannot digest this shit right now.

i do not deserve to be called this.

you gave me no guide lines.

i did the best with what i had.

and i never meant to disappoint.

i do not know why you didn't talk about her.

why don't you mention her?

you should mention her.

it will make me feel comfortable.

because being so comfortable with you now keeps the flood gates open for leaks.

and i can't fall hard for someone whose already landed.

and i know i can fall.

i am sorry.

that's all.

i could say what i wish to do to you.

but i know that you will never take the "shut and kiss me" step.

and i know i won't do anything to do anything worse to you.

so here we will say.

and i'm sorry.

i wish you would have wished me congradulations.

you should have swallowed your ego like i've been forced to do with mine.

you are being a bad sister for that.

and i don't appreciate it.

nor deserve it.

that's right.

i don't.

i have to work now.

and i don't want to.

that's right. that kind of day.

the one i have never seen.